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      These past few days could've been better, I have pushed away  the person that means the most to me in this world. I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer I had to let it all out and i went about it all wrong instead of taking it out on my pillow i took it out on him and now he hates me and won't reply to my messages even though i haven't been backing down much and I'm stubborn as hell.

   I  need to move on and let him go but its really hard to do because I love him to death but he only loves me as a friend and our flame has died but he never knew how much i actually love him. I fell in love with him the moment he said "Hola" and i never stopped and it grew stronger and stronger. He will never understand and all i can do is scream until my throat bleeds and fall to my knees and cry a river and drown in my own tears. I hope this feeling eventually goes away I deserve to be happy.