Ever have one of those days where you just wanna give the world the middle finger and say fuck everything, I'm going to bed?. I'm having one of those weeks, I just want everything to just go away and leave me the fuck alone and it doesn't help that my mind is screaming at me and I can't sleep I barely even want to be awake. I am now sick because I'm not sleeping well, sometimes i end up crying for no reason (well there is a reason but i don't wanna talk about it) I just want to sleep forever like sleeping beauty so that no one can wake me up because I dont know if i will even find a true love, sometimes I wonder if I will die alone.

Fuck you animal abusers!

I hate people who abuse animals. What goes through your head that you think its OK to harm an animal?, How fucked up do you have to be to do that, to hurt an animal that didn't do anything to you and cant defend themselves. If you harm an animal you deserve to have what you have done to that animal done to you ten times as worse and then some. It makes me so sick that people think its alright to do this! like how dare you?!. I just want to take a baseball bat and beat the crap out of the animal abusers, Those animals love unconditionally and are loyal and you go and beat them or whatever. I have two dogs and I know if someone hurt my dogs I would come out swinging I don't care how dangerous you are I will fight for my dogs they are like family.

Ok so, I'm a really huge Naruto fan I have watched it since i was in grade 7, I am now 20 years old almost 21. I could swear Tobi was Madara but..... SPOILER ALERT!!  Its actually Obito, Madara Actaully saved him and sewed on half of an artificial body like Zetsu or whatever his name is. I almost died when I read this chapter http://mangafox.me/manga/naruto/v62/c600/1.html  in the Manga. He was there in the first ninja war and watched Rin die and only reveals himself in the second ninja war but fights Kakashi and them in earlier chapters and Kakashi only figured out it was him when he did this jutsu. Another fact I found out or rather read is that Orochimaru is actually alive and comes out during the second ninja war as well because sasuke wants help with something i wont go into much detail because i don't remember i was too excited about the madara / obito thing And Sasuke knows the truth about why Itachi kills his whole clan and only Madara and Obito got away because they were supposed to be already dead and are hiding out.

I always knew it was gunna end but i didn't think it would end badly, I didn't think i would lose my best friend.

I always knew the time was never right and never will be, maybe we'll meet again in another life or maybe I'll never see him again.

I always push people i care about the most away, I don't want people close to me because i would rather die alone then get hurt.

I didn't want to push him away, but that's what happens when you act before thinking and speaking your mind when i should've just shut my fucking mouth.

I don't know when to back down and when to not be so stubborn and let people in or at this rate i will have no friends at all. I already lost the most important one so i guess it doesn't fucking matter anymore.

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      These past few days could've been better, I have pushed away  the person that means the most to me in this world. I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer I had to let it all out and i went about it all wrong instead of taking it out on my pillow i took it out on him and now he hates me and won't reply to my messages even though i haven't been backing down much and I'm stubborn as hell.

   I  need to move on and let him go but its really hard to do because I love him to death but he only loves me as a friend and our flame has died but he never knew how much i actually love him. I fell in love with him the moment he said "Hola" and i never stopped and it grew stronger and stronger. He will never understand and all i can do is scream until my throat bleeds and fall to my knees and cry a river and drown in my own tears. I hope this feeling eventually goes away I deserve to be happy.

pick up the pieces

Every time I pick up the pieces and think I'm fine then he says "hey" and all the pieces fall apart and fly away in the wind and i break. I break a little worse every time, but I put on a fake smile act cool then when I am alone as soon as i get to the safety of my bed i let out all the tears I have been holding back. every time I close my eyes he's all i see, when i dream he is all i dream about. He is the only one i have ever loved this much and this deeply and he seems to just shrug me off and that kills me. I know i have to stay strong and keep picking up the pieces of my heart until i get over him only then will i ever be whole again and even then there will still be a big piece missing.

Love is cruel

I hate how sometimes you can love someone with your everything and all of a sudden you're the only one. Love can be really cruel but i guess you can't have happiness with out a little pain and no rainbow with out a little rain as they say. No matter how much it stings you can't make someone love you if they really don't, you can't make someone stay if all they want to do is leave. I just wish these tears would stop flowing down my face and I wish i could stand up and brush it off like he does. I'm not as strong as him why won't he understand?, why won't he just shut the hell up with his everything is OK answers and give me real answers with real feelings not just a shield. I want to know if he even loved me and not just told me lies to keep me happy. I guess i will never know.

Let go

In life people come into your life and then leave as fast as blinking, they leave your life to make room for someone better and if they stay in your life they are supposed to be in your life. If they leave, you just have to let them walk out no matter how hard it may be. If they come back it was mean't to be but you wont know until you let them go. Its not healthy to hold on to something that is not working anymore and try and try to make it work. You can not make someone love you when they are already gone, you cant make someone love when they feel nothing towards you anymore.

my favourite time era

I have a fascination with the 1800's, I like the clothing and no Internet and hand written letters instead of e-mails and actually meeting in person. I don't like that women had no rights and neither did any other race that came here and that only men could be in government and vote and shit. I like that we had barely any pollution and there was forests and places to go and see. I also liked that things were being discovered still and the only way to get around was by horses or ships or trains (depending how late in the 1800's). I do however like how easy things are now a days and that it doesn't take weeks to travel somewhere and that there is heating and air conditioning and that we have ipods and phones. I couldn't live with out my Ipod, I could live without my phone though. I know most people wouldn't be able to go an hour with out their phone but how about actually seeing the person face to face and not just text them or go outside and enjoy nature and what beauty the world has left to offer before more of it is lost due to development and global warming.

guys

When it comes to guys, i would rather have a virgin then a guy that's been around and slept with so many girls and think they are the "man". I would rather have a guy who's smart and outgoing and can make me laugh not some boring guy who's only goal in life is to get laid and  who is so shallow and only dates skinny, skanky,  ditsy bimbos.  Get over your self you're just a womanizing pig and nothing more.

Same sex marriage

I am completely straight and I'm all for same sex marriage, just because they are of the same sex doesn't mean they love eachother any less than a opposite sex couple. They should have as much rights as opposite sex couples when it comes to getting married, You can't help who you fall in love with and People should just back off and let them be happy with the person they want to spend the rest of their lives with. Same sex couples shouldn't have to leave their own country just to marry eachother, they should be able to get married in their home country. I am glad its becoming more legal in the U.S.A its still not completely legal there but its getting better i guess but i dont know much about that cause I'm Canadian. Where I live its legal and you don't get judged as much and people dont tell you that you are wrong as much and more people are supportive of it and are happy for them.

good deeds / selfish deeds

Just because you help out and do something good just once, doesnt mean that people are automatically gunna help you out and be nice to you if you are nasty and rude everyother day of the damn year. Just because you do a good deed it doesnt make you a saint, it doesnt make you a good person, you have to continue to do good deeds and treat people like you want to be treated and not like garbage. and do not  do the good deed just because theres something in it for you thats not how it works, thats just pure selfishness and it will get you no where in life except all alone with just yourself.

If you are nice to people even if they are nasty to you, you know youre a good person and you know who you are at the end of the day and feel good about yourself and your life and want to help people all the time just to make their lives alittle easier, thats what i would consider a good person.

Respect

Respect isnt just given to you, if you want respect you have to earn it same with trust. If you don't respect others and treat them like garbage and put them down all the time and tell them they are worthless and automatically expect them to treat you with respect and give you respect. You can't demand someone to give you respect and do nothing to earn it and when people don't, you get angry and pissed off and wonder why no one wants to be near you.

If you want someone's trust you have to prove to them you are trustworthy and never take someone's trust for granted and be the most nasty person to them or that trust and respect will be gone forever and will be every hard to get back.

Real issues

I am sick of hearing about celebrities this or celebrities that, I want to hear and read about something important  like the enviornment or the war or about things that are happening in other countries. I could careless about who's cheating, who's married to who. like come on get over yourselves i want ground breaking stories i don't care about famous people, they aren't any different then us on any given day, half of the celebrities i don't even know why the fuck they are famous. If people put as much effort into showing whats happening with our planet and the global warming and how many species of animals are being wiped out and non-renewable materials such as trees are being burned or chopped down. We would be more aware of what we are doing and maybe I don't know help save the fucking planet before we all die of earth quakes and tsunami's and forest fires and floods. No one is going to care about celebrities when we are all dead or dieing. Everyone is going to be wishing we paid more attention before it was too late, but thats just my opinion.

understand

       Women are not supposed to be understood, no we are meant to be loved. When we appear angry about something, most of the time we are more hurt then angry and hide behind anger so the world wont see her pain or she will hide her feelings and put on a brave face until she is alone in the dark at night and lets her tears flow down her face. We usually can only say its OK or its alright and let things slide so much until we cant take it anymore and snap. We already have so much stress that sometimes the littlest thing can make us upset.


         Guys complain that we complain about wanting more attention or that we need to be called beautiful or told that they love us a lot, we need that assurance that they won't hurt us or think that the sun still shines out of our ass when we are in the worst mood. When everything goes wrong we just want to be called beautiful and hugged and told that it will get better and not get told to shut up or ignored for hours on end when we really need someone to talk to. When we need our significant other to hold us while we cry our eyes out after something happens. Sometimes we just feel so insecure and our walls are hard to tear down and we wait to see if we can find the right guy to tear it down to prove to us that all guys aren't assholes or jerks.


       We need to be treated with respect and to be loved for whats on the inside and not whats on the outside, because beauty fades but the heart stays as beautiful as when it was formed in the womb . Some guys are such asses and only care about whats on the outside and as soon as they find someone more pretty they dump you and they never even cared about what you feel or even what your favourite colour is or your favourite song.  Some of them don't even care to get to know you at all and only use us and tell us they love us to get in our pants, they only care about what breast size or how skinny we are they don't care about our personalities or our goals or what we want to do with our lives.

forced religion

I personally hate when someone tries to force a religion onto me, I know there is something out there but I'm not sure if i believe in god or Jesus. I hate the whole idea of god and Jesus, I think that those are just made up by people so they have something to pray to or something to call whatever is out there looking out for them. I know that i was forced to go to church as a little kid and I hated every minute of it, it made me reject it and i haven't been back in years and i don't plan on ever going back just because i was forced to believe in something I wasn't even sure that was there in the first place. I do believe in ghosts and i do believe that i have people looking over me and protecting me, but I know that's my ancestors and my great grandmothers and fathers. I do believe in the after life and that your body stays and rots in the ground while your soul rises and walks around the earth after a traumatic death or died before their time.

A Female's freedom of speech

Why does society make it hard for a female to speak her mind without being called a bitch or hated for what she has to say or even judged?. In the medieval ages if a Female said something or did something a male didn't like they were stoned to death or burned at the stake or even drowned because they were accused of being witches. Now a days we don't get stoned or burned or drowned but we do get mixed responses and if people don't like what we have to say they either get really nasty towards us or we lose a couple friends. Some males still think they can beat the free will out of Females and think we are no good and we cant do anything and are only good for cooking, Cleaning or child baring, Don't get me wrong some women like to do that stuff but thats not all we are good for. And when a man sleeps with a bunch of girls he's called "the man" when really he should be called "The pig" because if a women sleeps with a bunch of guys she is considered a "slut" and called a "whore", thats such a double standard its not even funny. Way in the past females who cheated were considered slutty or what have you and shunned but  if the guy cheated it was just fine and tell the wife or girlfriend that they were doing their job properly or use them and abuse them.