Ever have one of those days where you just wanna give the world the middle finger and say fuck everything, I'm going to bed?. I'm having one of those weeks, I just want everything to just go away and leave me the fuck alone and it doesn't help that my mind is screaming at me and I can't sleep I barely even want to be awake. I am now sick because I'm not sleeping well, sometimes i end up crying for no reason (well there is a reason but i don't wanna talk about it) I just want to sleep forever like sleeping beauty so that no one can wake me up because I dont know if i will even find a true love, sometimes I wonder if I will die alone.

Fuck you animal abusers!

I hate people who abuse animals. What goes through your head that you think its OK to harm an animal?, How fucked up do you have to be to do that, to hurt an animal that didn't do anything to you and cant defend themselves. If you harm an animal you deserve to have what you have done to that animal done to you ten times as worse and then some. It makes me so sick that people think its alright to do this! like how dare you?!. I just want to take a baseball bat and beat the crap out of the animal abusers, Those animals love unconditionally and are loyal and you go and beat them or whatever. I have two dogs and I know if someone hurt my dogs I would come out swinging I don't care how dangerous you are I will fight for my dogs they are like family.

Ok so, I'm a really huge Naruto fan I have watched it since i was in grade 7, I am now 20 years old almost 21. I could swear Tobi was Madara but..... SPOILER ALERT!!  Its actually Obito, Madara Actaully saved him and sewed on half of an artificial body like Zetsu or whatever his name is. I almost died when I read this chapter http://mangafox.me/manga/naruto/v62/c600/1.html  in the Manga. He was there in the first ninja war and watched Rin die and only reveals himself in the second ninja war but fights Kakashi and them in earlier chapters and Kakashi only figured out it was him when he did this jutsu. Another fact I found out or rather read is that Orochimaru is actually alive and comes out during the second ninja war as well because sasuke wants help with something i wont go into much detail because i don't remember i was too excited about the madara / obito thing And Sasuke knows the truth about why Itachi kills his whole clan and only Madara and Obito got away because they were supposed to be already dead and are hiding out.

I always knew it was gunna end but i didn't think it would end badly, I didn't think i would lose my best friend.

I always knew the time was never right and never will be, maybe we'll meet again in another life or maybe I'll never see him again.

I always push people i care about the most away, I don't want people close to me because i would rather die alone then get hurt.

I didn't want to push him away, but that's what happens when you act before thinking and speaking your mind when i should've just shut my fucking mouth.

I don't know when to back down and when to not be so stubborn and let people in or at this rate i will have no friends at all. I already lost the most important one so i guess it doesn't fucking matter anymore.

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      These past few days could've been better, I have pushed away  the person that means the most to me in this world. I couldn't hold my emotions in any longer I had to let it all out and i went about it all wrong instead of taking it out on my pillow i took it out on him and now he hates me and won't reply to my messages even though i haven't been backing down much and I'm stubborn as hell.

   I  need to move on and let him go but its really hard to do because I love him to death but he only loves me as a friend and our flame has died but he never knew how much i actually love him. I fell in love with him the moment he said "Hola" and i never stopped and it grew stronger and stronger. He will never understand and all i can do is scream until my throat bleeds and fall to my knees and cry a river and drown in my own tears. I hope this feeling eventually goes away I deserve to be happy.

pick up the pieces

Every time I pick up the pieces and think I'm fine then he says "hey" and all the pieces fall apart and fly away in the wind and i break. I break a little worse every time, but I put on a fake smile act cool then when I am alone as soon as i get to the safety of my bed i let out all the tears I have been holding back. every time I close my eyes he's all i see, when i dream he is all i dream about. He is the only one i have ever loved this much and this deeply and he seems to just shrug me off and that kills me. I know i have to stay strong and keep picking up the pieces of my heart until i get over him only then will i ever be whole again and even then there will still be a big piece missing.

Love is cruel

I hate how sometimes you can love someone with your everything and all of a sudden you're the only one. Love can be really cruel but i guess you can't have happiness with out a little pain and no rainbow with out a little rain as they say. No matter how much it stings you can't make someone love you if they really don't, you can't make someone stay if all they want to do is leave. I just wish these tears would stop flowing down my face and I wish i could stand up and brush it off like he does. I'm not as strong as him why won't he understand?, why won't he just shut the hell up with his everything is OK answers and give me real answers with real feelings not just a shield. I want to know if he even loved me and not just told me lies to keep me happy. I guess i will never know.